This post is about two individuals..born and brought up in different circumstances...unknown to each other...till time made them to tie the knot with each other...Funny eh?? Time acts in a strange way....

She was the eldest one in her family..She lost her mom when she was just 10 or 12...She missed her mom's care and affection..but life taught her to be strong to be independent..Her father wasn't a bad one..he was a man of principles..who loved his kids more than anything but rarely showed or expressed his love for them..For the sake of his younger kids..he decided to re-marry..The kids got their new mom...She was a contrast to the concepts of step mom we had for ages..The girl got to experience the once lost mothers care n affection..By now she was more responsible..she gave preference to her brothers than to herself..Her role was more of a mother than of a sister to her siblings....

Though she wasn't tat brilliant..she loved to study, science was her favourite subject..But her father's view was different..he was least interested in her studies..neither did he wanted her to get a job..He believed that earning income was not a girls cup of tea...She was scared of her father..she nodded obediently to all his views..She loved her college she loved her friends..she treasured her college days..She hated whenever she was asked to bunk her classes to meet some unknown guy and his family..who had come with a promise of a great future for her...

He was the eldest one in his family..he was a narrow minded,systematic,inexpressive, brilliant guy.His family wasn't financially sound.He completed his B tech in a reputed institution..he had to go for part-time jobs to support his studies..He worked hard for his family and he taught his sister and got her a job as a teacher..He tried ways to support his younger brother but he was unsuccessful..He was not a guy who tried to find time for his friends..may be it was because he was in a hurry to keep his family stable...he wasn't an introvert kinda person..he was short tempered..and for him spending time for others was like asking for too much.. whatever he travelled throughout the path of life without a comrade..he lacked a friend..His college days could never present him with a best friend..a good-friend..but he did find friends who introduced new habits in his life..of which smoking haunts him till now....

Two completely different individuals "HE" and "SHE"..and finally destiny decided to bring them together..She met him for the first time at her home..she was asked to bunk her college to meet yet another unknown guy..To her surprise she couldn't find him..she was welcomed by his father's face at her home..There after everything was so quick..the girl met the boy, she could find traces of her father's character in him..even he was a guy who was of the view that earning income was not a girl's cup of tea.. all she had to do was to have some degree and then devote her entire life to look after her husband and kids...The date was fixed and the two individuals who never knew each other tied the knot on an auspicious day..Two strangers thrown together forever, for years, and expected to make it!"

She was a good mother, a good wife..she never complained about the busy schedules of her husband..she was used to all these in her early life..He couldn't keep his official life and private life in different levels..He wanted to have a safe secure life for his kids..he continued to find means to support his parents and his brother..He went abroad when he got a better job..and spent there 5 years of his life..He was still in a rush to fulfill the dreams he had for his kids..He was a proud father of two..Somewhere in his hurry to find a balance and in her decision to sacrifice her likes for others..they both lost time for themselves..they lost their time in connecting with each other..

Their marriage life did see ups and downs..could be quoted as the critical years of their life due to all the habits he acquired during his college life..But it helped the kids to be stronger..taught them what life can be!!

Realizations often occur late..but it do occur..And strangely for him it took years..

when she was hospitalized for a surgery..and through the days of her bed rest..he started to realize the role of the woman in his life..its not that he didnt love her..could say he took her for granted ..He is trying to regain the lost time..though he rarely succeeds..:) she laughs at his attempts and remarks " You are mad..!!"

Though they were two strangers when they married,.completely different individuals..with no common likes..., through the years ..they did develop some unseen connection that kept their relation going..They both find that there is still more to discover about each other,more that is ledft to surprise and startle..If you ask me whether they were perfect for each other..whether they could have found better partners..I am sorry I dont have an answer..but theres one thing I am so sure about..

THEY ARE THE WORLD'S BEST PARENTS..I COULD NOT HAVE ASKED FOR A BETTER MOM AND DAD :):)COULD NOT HAVE ASKED FOR A MORE WONDERFUL BUNDLE OF LOVE :):)

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PS :This post has got nothing to with my life..this one is a short story my first piece of work that was appreciated..wrote it when I was in my eighth grade..So..heres my first short story.. :)

"IT WAS THE LAST BUS..."

It was raining heavily..I was completely drenched in rain when I reached the bus stand..I loved rain..but not today because I didn't want to miss my bus ..I checked my watch ; Na i wasn't late..it was only 6pm..and the bus was scheduled to start within 30 minutes..I was happy to find a vacant window seat..He was supposed to reach before me...I wondered what kept him too long....Rain was still pouring..

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I remember the expression he had when I asked him whether he was ready to live in a safe place where he could sleep peacefully without an empty stomach..At first he stared at me..he was bewildered by a question that too from a stranger he had met 3 days back...He murmured something...and said "paanch rupiah madam" I guess I got the answer..I payed him for the bouquet he gave me..He grabbed it and in the next second he was invisible within the crowd that had gathered at the beach..I dint get much time to convince him...I was sad at his response..

Sister Angelica was right may be he was used to his way of living..She had advised me not to get so close to the boy whom I had met just 2 days back after my arrival .By profession I am a writer working for a small magazine named Voice..I often took leave from my busy schedules to visit Angelica who was my mother sister father everything..I loved being at her place..She owned a small house with a beautiful garden facing the beach..I got the feeling of being in a fantasy world whenever I visited her place..Most of the stories I wrote were born here right here at her place...Lying on her lap I thought of him...I thought about our first meet..

I was having a look at the most spectacular sunset when i felt a small pat on my shoulder..I found a small boy of 6 or 7..with a basket full of handmade bouquets..He was dark and thin and wore pants too big for his size..He had lot of scratches and burns on his body..but he had a bright smile on his face..I returned his smile..He wasn't looking at me but at the sketch of the sunset I had made..I gave him the sketch..his fingers traced along the sketch and the letters written below it...I bought a bouquet from him and asked him to keep the sketch..

May be I was too quick...But all I wanted was to help him... I didn't know what brought me close to this little one.I didn't know where he lived..he had tears in his eyes when I asked about his parents..I recognized the pain in those tears the pain of an orphan..an abandoned life..He had fear in his eyes..he did fear something or someone..may be that was why he neglected my offer.

It was Sister Angelica who woke me up the next day to let me know that I had a visitor..I could get her from her smile who the visitor was...I rushed outside to meet him.He was wearing the same khaki pant...the same cute smile..but he had a new-imprint on his left cheek..a fresh burn.. He kept a distance from me.. It took a while for me to put up the same question again in front of him..This time he gave me a quick nod..He promised to meet me at the bus stand...and left quickly before I could say a word..

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The rain had finally stopped pouring..I rechecked my watch. 10 more minutes..I tried to relax and not to worry..I decided to take ticket for two..to my surprise instead of tickets the conductor handled me a cover..He said someone had left it for me when I was sleeping..I found a rolled sheet of paper and a bouquet in it..As I unrolled the paper tears started to roll down..it was the sketch of the sunset..

I could hear the voice of the cleaner shouting " ..last bus.. this is the last bus...."

Yeah it was the last bus....

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Our most powerful school memories don't revolve around the teachers you had or the subjects you studied, but instead have to do with your relationships with other students..My best days were spent at Silver Hills Public school where I did my 11th and 12th..I have always been looking for a reunion there. It finally became a reality on Aug 22nd...I got the chance to visit the place where a whole lot of memories lived..a place where I found intense friendship,where I saw crushes getting crushed.. the laughter and cheer that remained even amidst the stressful homeworks and entrance classes... the miseries of being bullied, teased, and lonely..it was a complete package...I really didnt know the value of school life till my college life started..and may be I wont find the best things about college life till it ends ironic isnt it...........

I have found new friends..but dnt know why they dont reach up to my old buddies..School life was always a heaven..I dint realize it when I cursed about the long and long chemical equation,when I felt suffocated with all the entrance classes,when I had areal good time with my friends at annual day,when I became a senior and with that tag on the forehead I met the juniors,when I had to fill the slambooks...began to realize it slowly at the farewell day when I felt I wont meet half of the people again...when my friends went for orientation.. when they said about their new roommates and new schedules...It finally hit me as I walked towards the class where I was going to spend 4 years of my life as an engineering student..As I shook hands with my new classmate, a perfect stranger ,I murmured to myself aaah that idiot at school was indeed my best buddy :)..

So you people may think I am an emotional idiot, I am :)And that was the reason why I never missed any reunions..When most of my batch-mates gave silly reasons for not attending it..I lacked reasons for expecting every faces..Our last reunion was a real success...this time more people turned up..saw many faces which were getting blurred in my memory lane..

Most of them had changed..the smallest boy the chottu of our batch has now grown tall...taller than me :-o..pata nahi iske peeche horlicks yah complan ka haath he :)..The girl we often remarked as a talkative was no longer a chatter box..never thought she would become this silent..the girl who looked like a skeleton now had put on some weight and was now a terror among the juniors at her college..she said she was at the edge of getting suspended for ragging..my mouth was literally open..she exactly resembled a chottu skeleton during the school days..even now she hasnt gained much weight..and I dont know how she managed to get that terror tag :D..Most of the silent ones were now the violent ones..and vice versa..Some had put on weight..Few among them remained the same.Our class teacher himslef had undergone a real transformation..he finally started to crack some jokes..he used to be like a terminator..expressionless face..not much friendly..yeah the title was apt for him..he too had changed..he now seemed to be trying hard for a renaissance :P Few among them remained the same..As it was held on a sunday..we were free to roam around the classes..we walked across the corridors where we used to race each other..our class..the chemistry lab which reminded me about the salt tests..where breaking test tubes was once like a competition.. and there were people who earned name and fame for the number of test tubes they broke :D the lab assistant who considered himself as a collector :)the physics lab...which was the most boring lab for me :) Our most favorite computer lab where we used to conduct conferences while teacher took class..the project we had..the seminars about the topics we even dont clearly know about.....as we traveled throughout the path we once covered...whole lot of memories flashed..I missed one face among all...a face which I wont be able to see again..When I saw people clicking photos and posing..I wished to have one with my best buddy who is now in heaven at god's place..I missed him..I missed his talks..whenever I was with him I felt time was never enough for our talks never ended..I rarely checked my watch when I was with him for he was never out of things to talk upon..He always wanted to have a real big reunion..and when finally everyone found their time to meet up..he left us ..He was definitely a missing element for the reunion at least I missed him :)

Well the day was really special for me to meet a whole lot of faces I thought I would never see again..We spent about 3 hours there.. We were about to leave from a place where we all made a whole lot of memories to a completely different path...to a busy life..where you will see you best friend once at a random reunion or at some unexpected meeting.. ..I heard lots of promises of "keeping in touch",saw people exchanging their numbers,few of them cursing the other fellows who weren't able to turn up for the reunion,some of them complaining about the exams and assignments they had to complete on reaching hostel...

And we parted with a handshake a hug and a smile...Its going to be a month after the reunion and here I am still thinking about it and waiting for the next one..
yeh a stupid girl ryt?? :)

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I saw its first reflection when amma kissed me first on my forehead..it had that sweetness,it had the affection,it had the care..so it was supposed to be a mix of all these...When my father lifted me up and throwed me in air only to make me feel sure that I was safe in his hands..I found it had a new meaning..it made the feeling of secureness...It found an entirely different meaning through the times I spend with my brother..teasing,fighting,sharing,having pranks on one another...still at the end of the day a feeling of togetherness..So it happened to be something that I took for granted...

I later found its counterpart on my journey...they seemed to be similar in all respects..they make u blind..they give u fuzzy dream like memories... baseless fantasies.. their identities were something hard to distinguish..through the course of my journey I recognized the difference..its counter part makes you to look only the brighter side..it makes you head over heels for no apparent reason..most importantly..it is weakened by time and separation...yep thats what an Infatuation is...I have experienced it..pure immaturity :) Time erased it soo easily when I thought it wouldn't..It was just a feeling of being in love..

So wat is it?? The so called real "it"?? thats an euphoric feeling..quite understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection...Time made me realize the fact that it was something unconditional...where u dont look for reasons..or where u dont find a reason..caring about the happiness of another without a thought for what we might get for ourselves...like what our parents have for us..what we have for our friends..what we have for our loved ones..Each and everyone of us will definitely find it once..through our journey of life..Yep amidst the fake ones you will experience the real ones..some neglect it..some accept it..some fear to admit it...But it will always remain a sweet thing you have discovered on your journey..a sweet memory..which you will never regret of having ...

It is a magic brought out when those 4 letters get united---LOVE...

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Well this post is about a complete stranger who ended up being my best friend forever!!..We werent tat gud friends when we were in11th..Just class mates..

And the story behind the friendship...I blush even now when he brings up the topic..It was the most embarrassing moment for me...I dont believe am posting abt it...

It was the Christmas celebration of 12th!!! Everyone was busy showing off the presents given by their respective Christmas pals!!I still dont remember how it all started..who was the one who brought water balloons to our class..still searching 4 that idiot!!!! I was having fun clicking pics with my Digi cam brand new one..First attack if my memory is ryt was on sudheepta..the topper of bio group..she was attacked with the first water balloon if the reports are to be believed.. then there were several attacks...was laughing at the way people were running through the corridors to take revenge on one another...never knew I was going to be a victim shortly.

It all started when Aryan my bes-tie found a water balloon and started aiming at me....

Exactly at tat time I saw this guy in my class who was packing his bag and was getting ready to leave class..as if he was an alien in our planet..as if it didnt matter wat was going around him..he was in his corner of forest....(I know you are going to kill me for portraying u as an alien!!Friendhsip mein sab kuch chalta hein )So I just pointed at him and asked Aryan to aim at him instead of me..That was all I said..And the series of events what happened after that s history!!!I saw Aryan moving out of the class with his balloon..And I was about to leave the class..when something hit badly on me...I turned around and found I was attacked by a water balloon..but that wasn't what shocked me....when I saw the face behind the attack..I was literally shocked!!!!

The alien in our planet aka the so simple introvert,shy,guy..with a grin on his face..I swear I saw all of his 32 teeth...the guy did have an awesome smile..!!! But that wasn't what mattered..I was wet.and the thought that it was the alien who had attacked me made me mad...yep I was real mad!!!!When I saw that he was leaving...I filed my bottle full of water and tilted it..HE tried to block with AIEEE brochure..hell with the brochure..alien am going to evacuate you from our planet forever...I never knew that bottle can tilt on anyone it likes!!!He managed to tilt it and once again I was completely wet!!!!!!!!! The worst thing happened shortly..I slipped on the water spilled by me and fell on my back in front of the whole class!!!!!!!!!!!For a second I wanted to vanish into thin air..I wanted someone to kill me..I wanted to make a tunnel just there itself..I had mixed emotions..sad,angry,embarassed to the core,helpless,....The first face I saw showed an emotion of pathetic..I didnt have the nerve to face all..felt like the whole world was watching me..as if ..as if he was not the ALIEN it was ME!!!!I vowed not to bring tears and that too due to the mishap caused by that alien never!!FIGHT for yourself!!!I managed to get up somehow(yeah i was such a brave girl u see :P please dont feel bad while reading )..The alien who attacked me had become a native now and I was the alien...When I saw him I felt like I was seeing yam raj for the first time..except tat he didnt have a buffalo...but I could see his two big horns..big mustache..and his laugh llike thunder to my ears..I knew there was nothing to lose..I lost my mind..both my brain and concentration ran off together.and the next moment I was chasing him like a foooooooool!!!!..I raced him up and down the stairs and lost track of him....(learned later from him that he was relaxing in some class and was watching me running throughout the school!!! I know I was a pakka IDIOT)..Even chased him on my friends kinetic..and soon the news that my Digi cam was missing brought me back into the real world...Now I felt sad..I forgot all about the alien and soon everyone including the alien were engaged in searching for my cam...

I never got my cam back..it was lost :(..But those water balloon fights and the series of events that followed gave me a best friend...a friend forever..Though we dont study together now..we have parted our ways..different college..different life..but we haven't changed..though we meet rarely now...those unusual meetings are made sweeter with the crackle(diary milk not the fire crackers he isnt that bad!!:P) he brings with him... All I can say is that its been a sweet journey from balloons to crackles...

But my dear alien...I haven't forgotten the fact that I haven't taken my revenge....Its just that am still not good at aiming... :(

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She was born as younger one to her parents about which she never complained even when she knew that their expectations were high upon their son...Even when her amma used to tell her that they were soo precious for her just like both eyes for a human..but silently she said to herself how weak one of her amma's eyes were!!!

Somewhere , sometimes she silently wished if only she could be a boy...She never disliked her sibling..she was always fond of him..she was the one who always gave up when they fought for she knew silently that was what her amma silently wished for...She always thought how lucky he was...born as...excellent in academics,knowledge wasn't limited within his school books,he wrote amazing poetries and stories.... She always tried to match up with him but he was always, still is far beyond her reach...She had talents,but wasnt multi talented like him,she had stories which unlike his remained untold untill one of her teacher found her work good...when she bagged a prize for her story it too got lost amidst the prizes of her brother...but she never complained and believed what her amma said was right may be she got only a bit of her brothers talent in writing..She didn't complain...she still continued to write unlike him.. ... in fact she loved writing which her parents never knew and still they dont.....she felt some kind of peace..she wrote whatever came into her mind..May be that was why she loved her diary and thinks of her as her prized possession

She understood there wasnt any point in competing with him..for he had far faaar..faar... excelled..She didnt complain when her parents revealed that their happiest moment was the day when their son made them proud by making their dream true..for by now she knew where she was lost.... what she could never do for them?? She knew her dreams remained as such unlike his..He did everything she couldnt but she didnt complain..whether it was him or her at the end of which her parents were happy..

She never complained when her bestfriend backstabbed her..

She didnt complain when she knew she wasnt even worth loving..

She didnt complain when people made fun of her being an emotional weirdo

She didnt complain when people accused her for living in a fantasy world

She didnt complain when she learned people can be selfish and cruel even when they dont wish to be...

Only once did she complain when she felt God wasnt fair with her friend...

By now she started accepting things..she learned to nod but forgot to say no...with time....she found the imperfections in herself that gave her enough reasons for the way things were...

Never did she complain for those imperfections

as she felt those imperfections made her beautiful..unlike others...... :)

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The voice said "The Air-tel customer you are trying to call is currently switched off.. please try again later or you can leave your message in you voice@75 paise from your mobile"..Now the reality hit me..strangely it didnt pain this time....

Its true tat time flies,you dont realize the value of moments until it becomes a memory....all you try is to hold on to those memories so that they dont run away with time...I realized the value of each moment about 6 months back..I understood how precious each moment is!!!I realized it takes only a second for the world around u to change..anything can happen in a second...anything can happen that can leave your entire life full of regrets..full of disappointments...full of questions that will remain unanswered forever.....

It was exactly six months back that he decided to give up his lyf..he decided to leave the world for the happiness of others....From that day from that moment..I have been asking God for a wish...a wish that in one way or other he has to fulfill...Just for once bring him in front of me...just to anwer the questions that I have been facing after his departure...to know if there existed a way that could have lessened his pains...to know that he has forgiven me for not being there when he needed..

Like all other days,I started my day with the same prayer to the Almighty...A miracle ..just a miracle...They say when you pray with full faith and from the bottom of your heart..then God will never ignore your prayer..Today with all my faith I prayed"Lord!!!All I am asking for is once please for once..bring him in front of me from your paradise..I miss my friend a loot!! Couldn't tell him how special he was...I had always teased him always...I have always scolded him for disturbing my sleep by calling me late at night..he always slept late at night..Today all I wish for is a call I wont even mind if he calls me at midnight..I dont mind even if I dont get sleep because these days I rarely get good sleep..Most of my nights are spent staring at sky and searching among the stars for your face...You are definitely the brightest one among them..Lord I have never got a true friend like him..He had immense trust in me,,,I try to find him in each and every crowd..Believe me Lord I always end up finding someone similar to him..Please Lord you know everything..you have seen how his absence have affected me..I promise you I will never ever ask anything in my life..Please a miracle thats all I need Just a miracle please!!!!

I dont know whether I was insane because throughout the day I had a strong belief that I was going to see him...I was smiling the whole day..Something said that I was going to meet my best buddy today!! People around me constantly reminded that he was not going to return..and I was hurting his soul by crying over his loss again and again...Y cant he come back??Come on none of us know what happens after death so whats harm in wishing to see your departed loved ones..Energy never dies.. When we pass on our body will rest but our soul/energy will move in to a higher dimension The energy or soul can still watch over us or still listen to us..Tats what i believe.. How can you say that he is not going to meet me some day...when you dont have an idea about where you will be after death...May be I was crazy but I believed that I was going to see him today,may be a glance..Most of my college friends enquired what was the reason behind my happiness today..I simply smiled at them..On my way back from college I was searching each nook and corner of city for a sign..a sign from heaven..Neverthless nothing!!! I knew I was losing myself..but I decided to sort it out this time myself without dragging my lovable friends in this..

Slowly it started to rain!!!.."When shall we three meet again in rain thunder or lightning??...May be it was a sign from heaven!!...

I was all tired when I reached home..I was a bit disappointed...I have been asking through these days only for a small wish which even God couldn't fulfill...I terribly missed him..and once again went through those last messages he had sent me.. letting few tears escape.."Na I like taking ma breaks alone" I sat in my room reading those lines again and again..I dont remember for how long I was sitting there alone...I felt someone was sitting beside me in my room...

MY WISH!!!MY PRAYER!!! OH MY GOD U DO ANSWER PRAYERS...It was him my buddy wearing a blue t shirt and jean..but there was something unusual in his face..it lacked his sweet smile..But I was happy the face I wanted to see ,I wished to see for past 6 months was here right in front of me..I pinched myself..Ouch it pained!!No it wasnt a dream!! I was extremely happy that I couldnt control my tears..I had a lot to ask I wished time could freeze...Amidst my tears all I could choke out was the word "WHY??"

He was silent...and after a while he said in a calm tone "Life wasnt fair..It was totally messed up and It was the right time to end too !!"His face showed no emotions..My voice was getting weaker now.."Do ...you.. do you have any idea how much I missed you??" He turned and took my hands in his..this time he sounded sad..."You always kept your words..And I owe you for that..May be you would have helped if I let you know...but...leave it ..that was my fate...You are strong and you have to move on and you will...I cant stay longer" With those words he got up from my bed and moved to door...I was shouting after him to stay..stay for some more time...not to leave for friendships are meant to be forever..I begged "Please Stay please!!!" He smiled and waved at me " I wish I could ...will miss you"..and then before I could hold on to his hand he vanished into thin air..and I landed on floor.....I dint know what to do...What did I see now.. Was I dreaming???NO.. no this cant be a dream!!I couldnt be sleeping that too in the evening..I could touch him and I could recollect the way he sounded.....May be may be he was back..I dont know what I was thinking I rushed for my phone and punched his number praying to God to return those good old days!!I crossed my fingers wishing for the phone to ring..

It wasn't the voice I was expecting for...It was different..The voice said "The customer you are trying to call is currently switched off..please try again later or you can leave your message in you voice@75 paise from your mobile"..75 paise I can spent lots off money on voice messages if it can reach up to him..Now the reality hit me..strangely it didnt pain this time..because I was able to see him..even if it was... for once..for once that was all I had asked God for..God does answer..I still dont believe it was a dream..it was sooo real..May be God let him talk to me for a minute to help me out a little or something like that...Trust me !! God anwers to your prayer in one way or other the problem is you dont realize it...Or you never listen to them..

Hold on to your prayers!! Have faith...Soon you too will get a reply from heaven..

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