YATRA: January 2010

Finally 2010 is here..New year new hopes..new dreams..a brand new year..

I hope this new year brings joy to all ur life...When i wave gudbye to 2009...theres a face that strikes in my mind to which i will never be able to bid farewell to...My forever sweet friend Aryan..

I had saved a post about him before..but didnt publish it though..you dont realise the value of a person in ur life unless u lose them..

I met him at silverhills where i did my 11th and 12th..first impression hmm pakka "BHUDHIJEEVI",friendly,teachers favourite...we did get along well..we shared each others sorrows and joys..he was there whenever i needed him..most of my classmates thought that we were in an affair..Dnt know y still people think a girl and boy can never be gud friends!!!..Aryan wasnt even bothered abt the talk at class..He said y to bother abt others when they are not the reason for our friendship..soon we became best friends..I had to keep myself update with the details of his new girlfriends..was always busy with mending ad building new connections..but he always had time for me..whenever i was troubled i knew a call to him would make things better..he always had lots of things to share..he never liked to end a call without making my call balance to zero..At times i felt he was stubborn,immature...

We maintained our friendship even after our 12th..he got into NIT for electronics and communications..Distance never kept us apart..The last time when i met him..as always he was cheerful..was on his way to railway station..he had lots to say but time was limited..he promised to meet next week..

Didnt get any call from him next week...but he did send random messages..scrapped me that he was busy with the exams and would call me once it gets over..On 24th he gave me 2 calls i couldnt pick it up..I was stubborn and decided to wait for him to call..but he didnt call me that day..On 25th I messaged him..and to my surprise i got reply quickly..he said he was missin the school life..after few messages i decided to call him...we talked for only 5 min..he talked abt his exams,even asked for my bday treat..and promied to be back in hostel b4 gettin late..the shortest converstion we ever had..he told me that he was waiting for the bus and he will call me back once he reach the hostel..didnt know that was the last time when I will be able to hear his voice...

26/12/09

Checked my mobile for aryans message..but was disappointed..left to college as it was the last day of our 3rd semester...most of the benches were empty as most of the students left to their native places...thought of goin back to home at noon..later decided to stay..I checked my mobile in the evening i found abt 10 missed calls..and 10 messages from my friend Aquina to call immedietly on seein the message..when i called her she just told me that aryan has met with an accident and it was serious..when i enquired abt the hospital name..she was silent..when I asked jer wat was wrong she said that".. he left us aryan left us..!!!!!"..I couldnt digest those words..I felt weak,difficult to breathe..,felt like everythin has come to a stop!!Like someone has stabbed me and the pain was killing me...I tried to memorize wat she had said.."that he was waitin for the train to go back to home..and it was an accident"..Tat didnt make any sense to me..I had talked to him the day before and he was at town and was waiting for bus to reach back to his hostel..

Slowly everything started to make sense..."SUICIDE!!!!"But how can he do that..he wasnt a weak hearted guy..When I was in the most difficult phase of life he was worried seein me depressed and he was the one who advised me to call a friend of him who was a psychiatrist...aryan advised me not to lose faith in lyf..he advised me to keep smiling at problems in lyf..And such a guy could never commit suicide..NO never...

I was late i couldnt even see his body...but nw i feel it was better not to..Bcoz now when i think of him I am able to see his pleasant face..U still remain as an enigma!!

...Days passed..but the wound in my heart it doesnt seem to heal...day by day the fact that he is nomore is growin weak...Even now every mornin when i get up I check my mobile for his message..Am still in the recovering stage..he never liked me gettin depressed..and I dnt want to hurt his soul.I miss him each and evry moment..This wasnt a gud end for u da..U didnt even give me a clue...I can still feel him..I know he is still watching me up there in heaven..and he is surely havin a gud time there..Myt now be the favourite of God..Keep smiling and be happy..We will sure have a gud time when we will meet from there..

"When we lose something that is precious to us, we are left with a feeling of sadness. Whether it is a precious friend or even a treasured object, the loss can be hard to bear. It is as if a part of you has gone missing. Throughout our life we amass collections of friends and treasured possessions. Having close relationships help us feel as if we are not alone in the world. When we lose someone or something that is precious to us, we may realize that there is a certain aloneness that can never be filled...When someone close to u voluntarily ends their lives your entire value system is put into question."

THE TIME YOU SPEND WITH A FRIEND IS NEVER LOST FOR IT FOREVER LIVES IN YOU