Finally 2010 is here..New year new hopes..new dreams..a brand new year..

I hope this new year brings joy to all ur life...When i wave gudbye to 2009...theres a face that strikes in my mind to which i will never be able to bid farewell to...My forever sweet friend Aryan..

I had saved a post about him before..but didnt publish it though..you dont realise the value of a person in ur life unless u lose them..

I met him at silverhills where i did my 11th and 12th..first impression hmm pakka "BHUDHIJEEVI",friendly,teachers favourite...we did get along well..we shared each others sorrows and joys..he was there whenever i needed him..most of my classmates thought that we were in an affair..Dnt know y still people think a girl and boy can never be gud friends!!!..Aryan wasnt even bothered abt the talk at class..He said y to bother abt others when they are not the reason for our friendship..soon we became best friends..I had to keep myself update with the details of his new girlfriends..was always busy with mending ad building new connections..but he always had time for me..whenever i was troubled i knew a call to him would make things better..he always had lots of things to share..he never liked to end a call without making my call balance to zero..At times i felt he was stubborn,immature...

We maintained our friendship even after our 12th..he got into NIT for electronics and communications..Distance never kept us apart..The last time when i met him..as always he was cheerful..was on his way to railway station..he had lots to say but time was limited..he promised to meet next week..

Didnt get any call from him next week...but he did send random messages..scrapped me that he was busy with the exams and would call me once it gets over..On 24th he gave me 2 calls i couldnt pick it up..I was stubborn and decided to wait for him to call..but he didnt call me that day..On 25th I messaged him..and to my surprise i got reply quickly..he said he was missin the school life..after few messages i decided to call him...we talked for only 5 min..he talked abt his exams,even asked for my bday treat..and promied to be back in hostel b4 gettin late..the shortest converstion we ever had..he told me that he was waiting for the bus and he will call me back once he reach the hostel..didnt know that was the last time when I will be able to hear his voice...

26/12/09

Checked my mobile for aryans message..but was disappointed..left to college as it was the last day of our 3rd semester...most of the benches were empty as most of the students left to their native places...thought of goin back to home at noon..later decided to stay..I checked my mobile in the evening i found abt 10 missed calls..and 10 messages from my friend Aquina to call immedietly on seein the message..when i called her she just told me that aryan has met with an accident and it was serious..when i enquired abt the hospital name..she was silent..when I asked jer wat was wrong she said that".. he left us aryan left us..!!!!!"..I couldnt digest those words..I felt weak,difficult to breathe..,felt like everythin has come to a stop!!Like someone has stabbed me and the pain was killing me...I tried to memorize wat she had said.."that he was waitin for the train to go back to home..and it was an accident"..Tat didnt make any sense to me..I had talked to him the day before and he was at town and was waiting for bus to reach back to his hostel..

Slowly everything started to make sense..."SUICIDE!!!!"But how can he do that..he wasnt a weak hearted guy..When I was in the most difficult phase of life he was worried seein me depressed and he was the one who advised me to call a friend of him who was a psychiatrist...aryan advised me not to lose faith in lyf..he advised me to keep smiling at problems in lyf..And such a guy could never commit suicide..NO never...

I was late i couldnt even see his body...but nw i feel it was better not to..Bcoz now when i think of him I am able to see his pleasant face..U still remain as an enigma!!

...Days passed..but the wound in my heart it doesnt seem to heal...day by day the fact that he is nomore is growin weak...Even now every mornin when i get up I check my mobile for his message..Am still in the recovering stage..he never liked me gettin depressed..and I dnt want to hurt his soul.I miss him each and evry moment..This wasnt a gud end for u da..U didnt even give me a clue...I can still feel him..I know he is still watching me up there in heaven..and he is surely havin a gud time there..Myt now be the favourite of God..Keep smiling and be happy..We will sure have a gud time when we will meet from there..

"When we lose something that is precious to us, we are left with a feeling of sadness. Whether it is a precious friend or even a treasured object, the loss can be hard to bear. It is as if a part of you has gone missing. Throughout our life we amass collections of friends and treasured possessions. Having close relationships help us feel as if we are not alone in the world. When we lose someone or something that is precious to us, we may realize that there is a certain aloneness that can never be filled...When someone close to u voluntarily ends their lives your entire value system is put into question."

THE TIME YOU SPEND WITH A FRIEND IS NEVER LOST FOR IT FOREVER LIVES IN YOU

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This post is about two special persons in my lyf....I met them at a point of lyf when all of my friends left me....When I started to believe that noone really cares for each other..I didnt want to lose myself by trusting on others again...But... time erases all wounds they say..I met them during my 11th and 12th... Let me begin with the first....Aryan...hmm The first time when Imet him...I felt he was a pakka studious kinda boy ... we did get along well...He is fun to be with...Slowly slowly we became best pals ..aah... cant say he is a flirt but haa thoda bahuth ...heheh (sorry aryan).. It was quite difficult to memorise the list of his connections..I wished to see him serious in atleast an affair ... well he did have a chance..but things didnt turn up quite well... he is still the same busy in building and mending connections... hehehe... ah soo tats about Aryan... then the second one.. aah wat to say I noticed him mainly because he was always silent reserved...Like all my classmates I too had the impreesion that he was nothing but a boy with attitude...that was my impression in 11th.. I think the tour helped me a bit in recognising the real Avi...ooh forgot to mention his name its Avinash... and soon he too became my good friend..But I never thought that he would be my BEST FRIEND never ....It was and is a surprise for me and others.First impression is never the best impression..He is a simple sweet,caring guy..whom i can trust blindly..I am thankful to Aryan because he was the reason for our friendship...When Aryan left us I was shattered..I started to lose my mind..Its at that point of time that I recognised their value in my life...Avi helped me a looot and is still helpin me to get back to my normal self...He understood what I was goin through and promised to stay long...

What else can i ask 4 !!! I am blessed with 2 sweet friends..one up there in heaven and another here..whom I can trust forever...Every friend you meet owns a star and you can see them no matter how far..whenever you are down and want to get high,just take a good look up inthe sky!!

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Well college has been suspended due to some silly fights between sum of the political parties ..so got some unexpected holidays...Was both happy and sad .. the feeling of sitting bored at home made me sad... This time i decided to do sumthing ...something so that i could fight with the boredom.. As a first step decided to buy some books... And thats when i came across the

book named "Twilight' written by stephinie meyer.... A completely addictive kind of novel.. which is about a vampire romance at high school... extraordinary lovestory...At the end of the book i was sure of one thing that I was irrevocably and unconditionally in love with Edward...All I could dream was of Edward...the vampire.Edward is described as impossibly handsome, to the point of being almost godlike. His skin is like marble--very pale, hard as stone, and ice cold, but perfect and flawless..After reading it I wished i could meet him..I had learned that humans were more dangerous than vampires...The love he had for Isabella Swayn.. A kind of story that will stay with you long after you have turned the last page...

Edward a vamp who could listen to others thoughts..except bella...He found himself caught up in her expressions...he confessed his craving to take her life....he tried all his way to keep her safe as possible....Who wouldnt wish for a vampire like Edward....I was really facinated by him.. still I am ...wishing to meet him.....

"And so the lion falls in love with the lamb...."hemurmured

I looked away hiding my eyes as I thrilled to the wird..

"What a stupid lamb",I sighed.

"What a sick masochistic lion". he stared into the shadowy forest for a long moment.....

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First, Edward was a vampire...
Second, there was a part of him-- and I didnt know how dominant that part might be- that thirsted for my blood..
And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him...

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Was lazy for last few months .. and today I dont know y but am feeling a bit more relaxed time 4 my next post...When i read this article I couldn't resist myself from posting it...its about a letter from an unborn baby....here it goes.....

A LETTER FROM AN UNBORN BABY

Hi mom !How are you..I am just fine thanks...Only a few

days have gone by since I was conceived and

I am now growing in your tummy.To tell you the truth I can't explain how happy I am , to know that you are my mom.It also makes me proud to know that I was conceived out of love...

I am sure I amgoing to be the happiest baby alive..,.....

Mommy a month has gone past and I have started to noticehow my body is forming. I know I am not much to look at

now but just wait and see I'll make you so proud!!Even though I am happy I sense something wrong..........

You seem to have strange thoughts that leave me restless and worried but I am sure everything is going to be OK!

Don't despair...

Two and a half months have gone by mom,I now have hands that I can play with.Oh !! I am so happy!!!!

Mommy!!!!! please tell me what's wrong?

Why are you crying so much lately??

Why do you and dad argue everytime you meet up with one another?

Don't you guys want me anymore!!!!

Im going to do everything I can to make you want me..

3 months have now past mom,but u still seem to be so sad..

I am not sure Wat is going on,I am so confused......

Today we went to see the doctor and he booked an appointment for you tomorrow..

I dnt understand why I am feeling so good but u aren't mom!!!!

Mommy , where are we going???? Whats happening.....

Mommy this is not normally the time you take your afternoon nap... dont lie down..

Besides I am not tired I want to play...

Uh!!! What is this thing doing inside of my house????

Is it a new toy! Hey it's sucking up my house......

Please.... dont tug at me!!!

No Don't!!!!!!! hit me....U are hurting me !!!!!???

Can't you see I'm still small I can't defend myself..

Mommy!!!!Stop them, tats my hand!!!! Mommy!!!! stop them,

Thats my hand!!!! Mommy,my leg they ripping it out !!!

Defend me mom!!! Help me mom!!!

Tell them to stop!! I promise i will stop kicking if they do....

How is it possible that a human being can be doing this to me???

Oh I cant go anymore.... heee....lpp.... me........

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SAY YES TO LIFE!!

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